Thursday, January 6, 2011

To be a yogi, or not to be a yogi..

I am just going to start off by saying that it has been way too long since my last post!

I am sorry for that inconvenience.  

So much has already happened in the year 2011!! I am so excited to be in this new year.  I feel like a new person with all of the optimism and happiness I have felt lately.  It was as if once the clock struck twelve I was free.  Free from the grief and emotions that I have been hiding away for the last few months.  I do believe I shed a tear of happiness that night.  Of course like everyone else I have set goals for myself for the following year and I hope to fully stand by these goals and change my life around.  First and foremost I am trying to be more optimistic.  When I was younger I used to be this tiny ball of energy. Bouncing around as happy as can be with no worries and never letting anything get me down.  Then I started to grow up and all of a sudden I became this huge pessimistic person.  What had changed? Once I started getting stepped on by other people I learned it was time to toughen up.  I had my guard up always, until I felt that someone deserved to get to know the real me.  Then I would let people into my heart and then get hurt even worse than I expected.  Well this year is all about being optimistic.

It is finally time for me to put my daggers away.  I should rephrase that:  I am trying harder to put the daggers down.  It will take time of course.  I don't want to have all of this anger that I hold onto for no reason.  Things don't work out, and you move on.  That is my new motto to live by for this year.  I am sick of dwelling and holding on to the past and the blissful memories.  I am going to be there for myself first.  I have started taking numerous dance classes, and even gotten hooked up bikram yoga, a cleansing detoxifying yoga class taught in 105 degrees that helps promote flexibility, and work every muscle, cell and organ in your body.  It is the most intensifying workout I have ever been through, but worth every minute.  After the class I feel so refreshed and good about myself.  It has already taught me how to be more relaxed with myself and also how to connect.  

Getting in touch with myself and my closest friends is my idea of a perfect 2011.  May it bring all of you much happiness.  

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