The Queen Always Rules

Less than a week till we arrive back at school! These five weeks have come and go all too quickly.  At first they were dragging by slowly and painfully, but towards the end I felt I had such little time left.  I spent the entire break counting down the days that I wish I could somehow get back.  I am truly going to miss my girlfriends who I got to reconnect with after all this time.  I hope that we can keep up the good times during our last semester as undergraduates in college!

While doing my normal routine of sitting on my couch and watching multiple shows, I started to think about what my life has come to, which would be sitting, and watching multiple shows all day long.  All of these soap opera shows such as Gossip Girl and 90210 have such dramatic plot lines.  "Serena slept with Dan, who is the son of Rufus who is in love with Serena's Mother, who was married to Bass but then he died."  Believe me, that is just the beginning of the extremely twisted but somehow intoxicating plotlines.  There was this one episode where Chuck cheated on his beloved Blair by sleeping with someone else.  Blair was broken for months but then forgave Chuck and became frenemies with him.  The benefits of sleeping with your ex-boyfriend that you secretly hate and love at the same time.  I started watching these episodes and through the light on the other side I saw myself as a character, and even all of my friends.  That is when I realized that these twisted messed up plot lines are portrayed on T.V. because they exist in real life.  This is why we watch these dramatic shows that sometimes repulse us.  It is because we relate to these characters,  we most of the time are these characters.  Everyone has the lonely boy in their group of friends who is deep and truly looking for love, or the womanizer that is Chuck Bass, or even the snobby upper east sider who is always the queen.  When did these shows start replacing our lives, and at what point in our lives did we become these characters? Are we all secretly twins of our guilty pleasures?

To be a yogi, or not to be a yogi..

I am just going to start off by saying that it has been way too long since my last post!

I am sorry for that inconvenience.  

So much has already happened in the year 2011!! I am so excited to be in this new year.  I feel like a new person with all of the optimism and happiness I have felt lately.  It was as if once the clock struck twelve I was free.  Free from the grief and emotions that I have been hiding away for the last few months.  I do believe I shed a tear of happiness that night.  Of course like everyone else I have set goals for myself for the following year and I hope to fully stand by these goals and change my life around.  First and foremost I am trying to be more optimistic.  When I was younger I used to be this tiny ball of energy. Bouncing around as happy as can be with no worries and never letting anything get me down.  Then I started to grow up and all of a sudden I became this huge pessimistic person.  What had changed? Once I started getting stepped on by other people I learned it was time to toughen up.  I had my guard up always, until I felt that someone deserved to get to know the real me.  Then I would let people into my heart and then get hurt even worse than I expected.  Well this year is all about being optimistic.

It is finally time for me to put my daggers away.  I should rephrase that:  I am trying harder to put the daggers down.  It will take time of course.  I don't want to have all of this anger that I hold onto for no reason.  Things don't work out, and you move on.  That is my new motto to live by for this year.  I am sick of dwelling and holding on to the past and the blissful memories.  I am going to be there for myself first.  I have started taking numerous dance classes, and even gotten hooked up bikram yoga, a cleansing detoxifying yoga class taught in 105 degrees that helps promote flexibility, and work every muscle, cell and organ in your body.  It is the most intensifying workout I have ever been through, but worth every minute.  After the class I feel so refreshed and good about myself.  It has already taught me how to be more relaxed with myself and also how to connect.  

Getting in touch with myself and my closest friends is my idea of a perfect 2011.  May it bring all of you much happiness.