The Bitch Is Back

I originally had intended on trying to write once a week so I have some sort of consistency, but I am just so full of ideas and potential stories that I can't help but post!

I just had the pleasure of reading one of the most empowering self motivation books out there.  It taught me that when you have a voice, you shouldn't try to hold back because of how other people are going to judge and perceive you because of it.  This got me to thinking; Do we try to change our identity and who we are because of other people in our life? Do we see our questionable "traits" such as stubbornness, drama queen, immatureness, and try to mold ourselves into someone we aren't for someone else?

I would say yes.  A majority of us as human beings are constantly being told how we should act, who we should be seen with, what we should be studying in school, and pretty much how we should live our lives.  We mold into a certain niche and some of us never stray too far away.  In fact, a majority of people from high school stay in the same town, hang out with the same people, and do the same thing everyday in fear of acting out against what we call "the norm."

I recently discovered that I fell into this category that I never in a million years imagined I would.  I found a new niche where I was comfortable.   Where I knew everything about where I was going to eat, movies I would be watching, or even what conversations would take place on a daily basis.  Do you want to know the crazy part? It was convenient, and it sure felt good.  Then I realized, that this so called "niche" I was in, wasn't who I was at all.  This niche made me want to be someone I wasn't.  I wasn't allowed to act out against what I believed, or even act like my total self, which if I was to ask like my true self, there would be more drama than just a couple of fights every so often.  Was I voted the drama queen in high school? Your damn right I was.  I have been dramatic ever since I was little, a trait that has been with me my whole life.  This is what I leave you with;  Learn for your own self righteousness your traits, good or bad, because if someone or something doesn't like you at your worst, they certainly don't deserve you at your best.